Floods of Testosterone

News from God’s representative on Earth: Pope Francis says people can’t choose their gender. (The Metro calls this a rejection of ‘The Trans Movement’.)

I’m puzzled. Does the Pope think transgender people choose to be transgender?

Does the Metro?

… /thinks …

Fuck. Do people choose it? Do I have this really really wrong? I mean I didn’t choose. I’m a woman. Always have been, for as long as I’ve been aware of the concept. I didn’t choose to be, any more than I chose for my body to be savaged by floods of testosterone for decades. And I’m not ashamed of it, absolutely I’m not – but sometimes, in the dark, and the quiet… sometimes… I do wonder if a lot of stuff might have been quite a bit easier if I could’ve chosen differently. If I could’ve picked a gender that matched how my body had turned out.

But I didn’t. Couldn’t. Like the Pontiff said*. In that respect I guess he’s not that far wrong. Picking my gender wasn’t an option for me. The choice I got to make – in the end, and only with the courage lent me by my beloved wife, and by friends and family and colleagues who supported me unconditionally – was just to start expressing my gender as it actually is, despite the screwup Nature… or God, if His Holiness insists… made of my body.

It just strikes me as weird to pronounce that people can’t “choose” their gender. It’s… It’s almost as if the Pope has rather managed to miss the point.

(* It’s an unwritten rule of journalism, I believe, that the second or third reference to the Pope in any item must call him ‘the Pontiff’.)


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